Interview

David and I had our interviews today for teaching in Japan. Both of us have been nervous about it for weeks - it's great that we made it to the next step, but interviews are scary.

I woke up at 4 am, my heart racing, after an interview dream. Definitely unable to fall back asleep.

The actual interview... it's hard to say. Overall, I would give it a 6 out of 10. Maybe a 7. I'm more used to teaching interviews - the panel is easy to read, and you know when you've said something right. I felt totally lost - I could read anyone's expression and two out of the three seemed harsh and stoic. They painted a really bleak picture of what our life could look like next year.

What if your job asks you to work long hours, but David's doesn't. You have to work a lot and don't see him very much. Is that ok with you?

How will you react when he gets an invitation for a weekend away and you do not? Or vice versa? Would you accept an invitation to a wedding if he was not invited?

If you are chosen to participate you will be lonely
Will you be satisfied if you are the only foreigners in your town, it is dark and cold, you are lonely all the time, and, did we mention you'll be lonely?

Ok, that last one is a slight exaggeration. but they did emphasize the loneliness.

So I came home feeling very doubtful about the whole idea.

And All I Wanted To Do was talk to someone, but the couch ate my cell phone. So I burst into tears and wrote a blog instead.

I'm hoping by tomorrow my perspective will have evened out.