Actually Going Crazy

When I'm stressed out, sometimes I can't really tell until Things start to happen.

Like losing my checkbook.

Then losing my wallet.

Then trying to put my contacts in this morning, only to discover the case was empty. I distinctly remember rinsing off the contacts last night - where did I put them? It took a few minutes, but I found them curled up dead in the corner of the sink. I rinsed them off thoroughly and dropped them both in the sink, recapping my contact case and putting it away empty.

I have since found my checkbook and wallet.

On a funny side, I yelled at 4th period today. It's a good idea to pretend to get mad before I actually feel angry. Then I can still speak sensibly and firmly without a) crying or b) losing my temper and hitting someone. Afterspeaking stern words for a couple minutes, I ended up saying something like this: "And if I hear one more snide remark or unkind comment about a classmate, I'll start writing down names and call home. If I have to, I will call each and every one of your parents tonight." That was a bluff. I didn't have time to call anyone. But they were the Best, Quietest, and Hardest Working I have seen them all year.

I saw a daffodil today.

Dispelling a Rumor

Contrary to popular opinion, I am not engaged. Last week, a couple people asked if I were. This week, no less than three people asked me at church if I had gotten engaged - they heard the rumor.

Happily dating, not engaged. Tell your friends. Sheesh, guys, I'd let you know.

more thicker than forget

In planning my poetry unit, I find myself running accross one big problem: planning progresses at a snail's pace because I enjoy reading the poetry so much. I lose track of time just reading and reading and reading.

Good poetry delights me. Here's the gem of the day:

love is more thicker than forget
e. e. cummings

love is more thicker than forget
more thinner than recall
more seldom than a wave is wet
more frequent than to fail

it is most mad and moonly
and less it shall unbe
than all the sea which only
is deeper than the sea

love is less always than to win
less never than alive
less bigger than the least begin
less littler than forgive

it is most sane and sunly
and more it cannot die
than all the sky which only
is higher than the sky

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